OSN 2012 - 2013

heey blogger! 
i'm back from a 33 days of quarantine! 

my god. i dont know what to say. these past 33 days has given major changes to my life. it changes me throughout life, academics and even did it in a romantic way. theres sooooo many things that i dont want to let go and leave behind. but the truth is, life must go on and i have to keep moving forward. but still, missing the people that i have learned to love and cherish is a natural thing. but still, i miss the days where i have to race to get the best seat in the class. i miss how the classroom smells in the morning. i miss the dining table. i miss my bedroom view. haha. i miss alot of things. so i put out all the the photos that i think describes the moments that i would never ever ever ever forget hehe

its too cold outside for angels to fly

And they say She's in the Class A TeamStuck in her daydreamBeen this way since 18But lately her face seemsSlowly sinking, wastingCrumbling like pastriesAnd they screamThe worst things in life come free to usCos we're just under the upperhandGo mad for a couple gramsAnd she don't want to go outside tonightAnd in a pipe she flies to the MotherlandOr sells love to another manIt's too cold outside For angels to fly

lately, ive been loving these lyrics. Ed Sheeran is damn awesome. 
lately, ive been busy with making a blueprint of 'soon to be' the venue for our school's formal activity. so yeah, its been hectic. id ont have time to actually think of anything to blog right now. i'm sorry :( 




currently, ive been searching for new palylists. which is pretty hard to do with this downloading speed. it hurts my guts to see how the streaming bars are moving so slow. seriously. now, i have ti finish my things up and get a goodnight sleep. such busy weeks. 

red jeans

have you ever experienced that feeling of disappointment and uselessness? i know i just did. it feels like i just lost an insanely vital thing in my life. and like hell yeah, it hurts.


i recently just gain a grade. so yaaay i'm closer and closer to college now! in this new class there are somewhat the awkwardness of having an opinion. i dont know why, but i'm somewhat scared of raising my hands and ask something. its like one of those feelings where youre really scared of people judging you and literally got left behind if you actually consider it. i know its so damn complicated -_- compared to my relationship problem this is still in level novice. 


 The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.




back to topic. from now, i have to literally make two essays. first is for the speech contest, and second is for the karya ilmiah contest which i still dont know the deadline yet so yeah.